It’s answer the questions day…I have so many emails to get to that rather than try to answer all of the questions there…I will attempt to hit most of them here…

Why caitlin smiles?

Actually, it’s Master’s fault.  He calls me caitlin ~ has since we first started talking.  In fact there are people in our lives who have asked if He knows my name because He rarely says it…

Early in our relationship we had plans to meet in Denver ~ He was there on business and I had the weekend free.  At this point we were friends, just friends, nothing more than friends…we had exchanged pictures but there is still the ‘how will we know each other?’ thing going on…So when I asked Him if I should wear something that would help Him identify me He said ‘ No ~  I’ll just look for my caitlin smile’

In conversations with people ~ He will tell them that ‘nothing brightens my world like caitlin smiles’ and it has just become a most romantic silly thing between us. So when I started writing – it was the most “innocent” name I could come up with that would still let Him know I was aware…

How is Keith?

Keith is fine.   He is back here, working at the club, living over the club, comes over for dinner a couple nights a week.  Protects me when I go to Karaoke and makes my body tingle when he holds me close to dance.

We have shared a few nights here and there but with all of my physical issues it has not really been possible to play with him much.

The other issue we are dealing with is the fact that he is not quite the Sadist he thought he was…he sat in and watched a particularly lengthy and violent scene between Master and I and it upset him.  He was so worried about me and left the room several times because he could not bear to watch Master beat me…we all talked about it the next day and he conceded that perhaps he was more into the ‘lighter side of bdsm’ as opposed to full on Sadism.

What’s the latest on the move?

Still happening sometime after the first of the year although I don’t have a definitive go date yet.  I have been weeding through my world and attempting to decide what stays what goes and what we don’t need anymore.

We are flying out to Ohio this week to see the guys at Cleavland Clinic and buy a piano…quite the combo don’t you think?  I am seeing my cardio guy here and the auto immune specialist but evidently the plan is to wean me off of my old guys and on to the new guys so we are double dipping…my insurance company LOVES me…

As for the piano?  I have a baby grand here in the house – I got it as a graduation gift when I got my Master’s  – and had initially talked about taking it to Ohio but then, what would I have to play when I was here?  We went back and forth and finally He decided that we would just buy another piano for the Ohio house.  Buying a piano is like buying a car – you have to test them and take time – so we are going shopping this week as a first step…of course, my last two cars were ones I fell in love with right off the bat so it may all happen this week…wish me luck…

Any change in the relationship with your Master and His son?

Not really.  He has chosen to let our son make his own choices in this and has not pursued him to ‘make things right’ there is nothing that would change from Master’s stance.  This child (yes he is older than I am but he is acting like a spoiled child) made some potentially devastating decisions within his job at the company and Master dealt with him as He would with any other employee…He has not cut him out of His life…has not walked away from him…He simply fired and employee who needed to be terminated.  Unfortunately our son does not see it this way.

We have weekly emails and phone calls with the grandkids and Mom hears from our son fairly regularly…his wife refuses to speak to or about us and thus the lines have been drawn…it makes me sad and angry at the same time but it is so not my job to fix…

Are you still singing?

I am assuming you mean at church and what have you?  If so, yes…music is my foundation and if I am ever unable to sing?  Put a fork in me…I am done…

I don’t sing each week as it is often too much for me to be on stage for 40 minutes or so but I do special music and sing on worship team now and again.  Rehearsals have begun for both Christmas and New Years’ concerts and I am acting as if I will be able to sing…I am also doing one final play with our Light Opera Company.  I have been performing with them since I was a freshman in college and here I am…25 years later….doing my last show.

We are going to be doing Chicago and casting starts next week…I long to play Roxie but we shall see…of course Mama would be good too…

I am also singing in the Sound of Music at the high school…I get to be Mother Superior simply because I can hit the notes…it was too funny when they came to ask me…

Have you and your Master been scening?

I so don’t like that term but the answer I suppose is yes…and that would be a whole nother post…