I have a confession that most likely will not come as a surprise to some if not most of you…while I love this site and I love the doors it has opened and the most amazing people it has brought into my corner of the world? I don’t like writing about the most intimate of times with Master.
So there is lots of fluff and family stuff and the lifestyle stuff is often few and far between. Hence the invitation for questions – it at least gave me a focus – but then the questions got so snarky and just plain ick so He asked me to not answer emails anymore and my most insightful question asker has sorta gone into the shadows so I once again got stuck with just my stuff.
The reality of our life is the day to day vanilla stuff and I know most of you sorta enjoy hearing about that stuff as well but the other things? The time spent on my knees or in the cage or out in the play room? I find myself wanting to hold them close and not share.
For two reasons – the largest one being that I truly am an intensely private person in some regard. Okay – so y’all know far more about my sex life than you should – but my friends and family? Refer to me as the pure one because I am supposedly so reserved and naive. ::::and now that we have all stopped giggling::::
The second reason is the judgements…I can write about a scene and get emails saying ‘there is no way you survived that’ to ‘and you call yourself a slave – you are a wannabe’ based on the same post…
SO once again I am at a crossroads as to what to write about and what to say…
Just thought I’d share.
I know mean emails can be hurtful but honestly who cares what anyone else thinks about what you write. You write to clear your mind and allow yourself to think and by doing so you share a little piece of your life with the rest of us. As long as you and master are happy and content with what you write, anyone who is not can read else where.
Take Care and keep writing from your heart.
By: AKB on December 27, 2007
at 11:42 am
I have to agree with AKB’s comment on this. I have received comments and such from others who are both in… and out… of the lifestyle that come across as hateful, judgmental, and just plain rude as hell. Write what you wish.
You don’t have to share anything you don’t want to, and you don’t have to put up with what I would call harassment either. I greatly enjoy your blog and the different subjects you write about.
By: Coyotes Kitten on December 27, 2007
at 5:25 pm
Ignore the NAYSAYERS and the JUDGEMENTAL ONES. Remember why it was that you started your journal. The real life stuff is as important as the other, because it is all a part of the whole. Share what you will, don’t let the naysayers and judgemental people color what it is that you want to write about. Just be you….some days thats more KINK than vanilla….Thats life.
By: mickimichele on December 28, 2007
at 12:11 pm
I have, recently, had cause to go back into posts that I wrote in the earliest days of The Swan’s Heart, when I was still feeling resistant to the whole idea of writing a blog at all, and others that were written through some very challenging and difficult periods for me. I am, honestly, amazed, when I read some of them, because I truthfully do not recognize the words as mine. Had I not written through all those weeks and months and years, so much of what I saw and felt and thought would have vanished on the waves of time gone past — and the growing would have gone along with it.
Like you, I write to clarify my thinking, and I write because my doing so responds to His command that I do so. However, in the writing, I have created a record of the jouney I’ve made. It is a record that would not exist otherwise. It makes no difference what anyone else has thought about the words I’ve poured out along the way. Today; right now, I find all those words to have been worth the effort.
I hope you continue to write your story. It is yours. Collect the companions that are valuable to your life. For all the others — strangers that you pass along the way — they aren’t there for you, obviously. There isn’t any reason to invest any energy in them.
Hugs, swan
By: swan on December 29, 2007
at 5:52 pm
Thank you all for your words…see? That’s why I keep writing – for the insight and the wisdom and the encouragement that comes from people like you – so thank you. You have truly blessed me.
Caitlin
By: caitlin on December 30, 2007
at 1:35 pm