Hi!

 Did you miss me?  C’mon – you know you did…but life at my house has calmed down a bit – for the moment….

The little man is in Montana – amidst many hugs and tears and I love yous – it was like ripping my heart out to see him go.  He was ecstatic at the idea of going off on an adventure with my men but as they were leaving our driveway it finally hit him that he was not coming back.  He jumped out of the car and came tearing up to our porch.  ‘Auntie Moo – Auntie Moo!!!’ 

He jumped into my lap on the glider where I was sitting and wrapped his little arms around my neck. ‘Member – I loved you first’  as the tears rolled down both our cheeks.  I kissed him softly and wiped his face and reminded him I was just three buttons away. (Master bought him one of those cell phones just for kids where you program the numbers he is allowed to call – I am number two after Dad) and we hugged for a moment or two and then Master came and gently cradled him back to the truck.

I received hourly phone calls for the first day and by day two I was down to every few hours.  He has been with his dad for a day or so and I have heard from him three times.  The roughest was bedtime last night – he called and asked me to pray with him and sing him his song – it’s a song I have sung to him since he was brand new – by the end of the song we were both in tears once again.  But he is loving life back there – during the day I get the oh so excited phone calls as he tells me of a new friend or the day’s adventures.  He will be back the last week of August for Family Camp with the church – but to go from daily living to this has been a change that will take time.

Master and my teen are on their way home.  They should be here today but found a car rally last night so it will be late when they arrive.  They are having the best time and it is good for my men to spend time alone. 

Mom left for Ohio on Wednesday.  She will be gone for a month or so.  There are days when I suspect she will not be returning to us but I am not sure.  It is still really difficult for her to be there without her sister-in-law and she misses Master’s touch.  Of course – if we moved there it would solve so many issues for her and Master.. (He did mention if we moved back east I could go play with swan now and again…)

This talk of moving back to that side of the map is not a new thing - I just haven’t been willing to even think about it.  caitlin does not embrace change…and Master would not ask me to move right now simply due to the medical issues and my specialists.  However, before He flew across the country to be with me a year or so ago, the plan was always that I would move there when my son had graduated and was off to college.  So who knows…it is just something out there in the universe at the moment.

Keith is home – and we spent the last two nights together.  Because as we all know He who must be obeyed has decreed that I am not to be alone…which on the one hand makes me feel so cherished and protected and on the other hand?  A bit smothered at times…but it’s okay. 

I have a post written about Keith but Master must approve it first.  I can tell you that he is here with us until Monday next and then he is moving back to his apartment over the club.  He is also going to be the GM at the club again starting July 1st so life is falling into place for my bad boy crush.

He is doing well - misses his mother a great deal and worries about his dad but he is doing well.  His dad has moved in with Keith’s uncle so he is doing okay but Keith worries ’cause it’s what we do as kids…

Health wise I am doing well.  I saw my internist last week and he said ‘I am going to tell you something I have not been able to say for eight years – you have normal kidney function…’ this is huge!  My kidneys were so bad at one point I was on dyalisis so to be back to normal is amazing.  My heart is doing well and I have almost forgotten about the pace maker – almost – I still get tired now and then but that’s just part of being caitlin.

So I am off to the farmer’s market – I will be back later.  Master has decreed that I am to post 4 times a week at a minimum…so here we go…